bye :(

I hate goodbyes- so much so that I often avoid them. When I know it's coming, I will leave quickly or spend as much time as I can with the person and deny the fact that they will be leaving me soon.

It reminds of this little girl my family used to baby sit, when her parents returned and it was time for me to leave she would hide- under the couch, or in her bathroom. Wherever... as long as we couldn't find her.

When she was found and told I was leaving, she would stubbornly refuse to say good-bye. She just wouldn't say it, hoping that in the omission of the word the action of my leaving wouldn't happen.

Somedays I want to be like her, just not say good-bye and hope that because I'm not saying it they can't leave...

Unfortunately it doesn't work like that when you are older. They leave whether you say good-bye or not.

THouGHT FoR THe DaY

I sit- staring at the oncoming storm, myself and my books are outside... exposed to the elements. This little old couple walked by and laughingly informed me that I would soon be wet! I smiled, and watched them walk (holding hands) to their car. The gentleman opened his wife's door, helped her in and then proceeded to get into his own car. My heart got teary...

and then THUNDER struck I turned in my chair to make sure the Starbucks was still behind me (it was) and continued to watch the sky.

I've decided (which I do often- make decisions that is) that it was worth the risk of getting wet to continue enjoying the fresh air the amazing clouds and the outdoors of God. (And I mustn't forget the view of the mountains!) So far it is worth every risk! I must leave in a moment but THIS moment should never be cheated out of it's full worth.

Thank you for sharing it with me!

P.S. Did I mention I was listening to Frank Sinatra?

-fifty-

50. Chewing the fat with friends... we talk as though we haven't seen each other for years when really it's only been a day

49. The smell of coffee... I hate the taste but the smell is soothing

48. The worn-out pages of a beloved, and well read book

47. My soft old stuffed bear... Ragzy

46. Dead pointe shoes

45. Traveling... especially flying in airplanes all by myself!

44. Taking pictures of people that I love

43. Creating intricate pieces of jewelry! And then seeing people wear them

42. The way real fires leave the smoky smell on your clothes... I never want to wash it out

41. Sitting in Starbucks all alone and people watching... they do the weirdest things

40. Reading my Bible, but especially when God just says something really clearly

39. My little women :D

38. Watching old musicals and singing every single song (That one is for those of you, who strongly dislike musicals... you know who you are)

37. Helping people... in small ways & big ways

36. Sunflowers, I love how they always face the sun! What a great purpose to life

35. Having something you've done be appreciated by others, it feels good to be able to share your gifts

34. Tom's Shoes!

33. Singing Taylor Swift songs at the top of my lungs with my friends

32. The nervous anxious feeling that I get before shows being soothed away be people who care

31. Talking in "Secret Codes" with close friends!

30. writing something awesome that is just for you and God

29. Galveston...

28. Driving in the rain with the windows down and listening to Jack Johnson

27. Having christmas lights up in my room- all year round

26. CHAI TEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

25. susiemag.com- if you are a girl who loves God- check out this mag!

24. sketching, especially when listening to rock

23. my soft brown blanket & naps!

22. bubble baths

21. long, jangly earrings

20. dictionaries (but I'm not fond of making a fool of myself trying to spell ridiculously hard words!)

19. Michael Bublé - yep

18. the movie PENELOPE!!!!!! awesomeness

17. the word SERENDIPITY

16. talking with writers & readers

15. walking everywhere barefoot

14. Narnia

13. being melancholy... sometimes you just need to be

12. "HOLD UP, WAIT A MINUTE..." (if you can't finish this... your loss!)

11. a clean room!

10. completing that triple pirouette en pointe

9. Christmas time- when you get to see all the family you only see once a year!

8. My Bookshelf

7. purity ring- very important!

6. Big Sunglasses

5. late night talks with Katie

4. chatting on facebook

3. staying up late- just to write

2. Waking up Early! To spend time with God

1. God & Jesus & Holy Spirit - and the way they work in my life

that's fun... :)